Waiting

I'm sitting here tapping away trying to relieve the nervous tension that is welling in my stomach.

I'm waiting for some people to come and have their second look at our purple nest. Lewi's at Sarah's and I'm here on my own trying to take it all in. Sometimes I stop and think: "what the heck am I doing? I can't sell this place!" I've had many of those moments today. At other times, when I'm busily drawing plan after plan after plan after...well, you get my drift {OC plan drawer!} and I'm picnicking on the prospective block of land we've got our eye on and Lewi's feeling not too sad about moving and a little tiny bit excited about the block {rarely though, he's quite upset about the whole move again thing..hence the reason he's at Sarah's right now} I feel a hint of excitement about the future.

If I stop and think too much it all get's on top of me and I crumble, a little. The overwhelming thoughts of packing up and moving all this stuff is enough to send me in a spin. Agh! So many, many thoughts flood my mind these days.Thoughts of leaving my gorgeous garden and trees that are now finally taking real shape and wondering how I'm going to take that final step through our gate. Thoughts of leaving my lovely neighbours and the streets we have become so familiar with. Thoughts of a time when there was no house here, only land and lots and lots of reeds in a squelchy, mushy paddock. Thoughts of a time when I was madly drawing plans for this nest and designing my kitchen and bathroom {and every other thing inside these walls!}. Thoughts of those many, many days of visiting Rod and Greg at Bega Wares and agonising over windows and doors and other lovely treasures that I used in the building of this nest. Thoughts of how darn stressed out of my brain I was while going through the building process! What am I thinking??? Do it all again?????? Agghhh!!!!

Ok, back to....waiting, waiting...they're not late. I'm waaaaay too early. My mind is thinking, thinking. Not a good thing for an over active mind like mine.

Nothing I can do but wait.

It's all in His hands...thankfully.